I am still a virgin and have realized that I am going to be like this for a while....sorry for me? Don't be cause I "chose" to do this. Reason being is that I am too picky or I just haven't found the right person to give my virginity away. Speaking of sex...oh, I just realized that this is too early for sex-talk. But you know what...people out there this early are probably having sex already (meaning the rest of the world). Anyways, what are places did you guys boink at?

Is there anything that turns you on? What makes you hot and bothered ? Some chocolate sauce and whip cream...LOL!

Do you know the three levels of sex? If not, read this carefully and understand the three levels of sex.

The first level is straight up FUCKING...no feeling just a random FUCK. Once you are done, you move on and FUCK another. It's just raunch.
The second level is called SEX. Having SEX with another person means there's a connection and no feelings added to it. You just want to have SEX with the person.
The third leve is MAKING LOVE. Now, not everyone reaches this level...some are just stuck in the first two levels. MAKING LOVE means you are committed to the other person. The feelings are attached and there's a deeper connection between the two people, called intimacy.

Now what level are you on?

I work so hard on the safe-sex condom pie project. We didn't finish the project until 10ish last night. But I am very proud of the project cause this morning when I turned it in my teacher kept saying positive words about the project. She took pics of it. I hope that we get full credit on this project or even get extra credit for doing such a great job.

This morning I woke up very early because I needed to turn in the safe-sex condom project and also work on my test which was due today for the same class.

Lately my days have been very long and tiring..one reason could be that I have been staying up very late. I just sit there and have been thinking about everything. I miss my mom and my sister...I guess moving out of the home makes you realize that you do love the home that you live in and that the things that drive you crazy including the people have a greater meaning.

I haven't eaten meet in a long time. I have been eating vegetarian foods, especially the place that sells the bagels and the fresh fruits with frozen yogurt ice cream....FUCK, that shit is off the hook...it's like BAM!

I talked to Jesse today and I being an ass and as usually giving J a hard time...Silly kid! Jesse wants to visit me, but I said Friday would be a better day. So, Jesse is coming here...YAY! We are going to kick it and just chop it up....

ANTHRAX is slowly over coming the news....it used to be Osama bin Laden....so what's next in the news....
Does the thought of chemical warfare scare you? Do you think we will ever resolve the problems that this country is facing? Do you think you are safe at home? or even anywhere? Is bombing a country a good solution? What can we do to stop this hatred? Do you ever face racism?

Good Morning Everyone!

My apologies for those who read my silences. But last night, I felt so tired and that I couldn't keep my eyes open. Yesterday felt like it was a very long day.

cont...

So, I actually made it through the class and didn't fall asleep or anything. I took notes like I always do. At the end of the class, my group people neededd them cause they were late and didn't cath the first half of the class...Oh, soooo bad of them! It felt great that I saved them cause the notes were very important and it said valuable info about the group research project.

I have to seriously say this, I have no idea what we are doing in class...I FEEL VERY LOST! I CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM DOING! Sometimes, I sit there and pretend to nod and understand just like everyone else. I hope that some of the people feel this way, too! But I know I have to get my act together and some how figure out what's causing this feeling of "LOST."

So after class, Blair and I hung out and chatted. She told me some sad news and I couldn't believe it. I am sorry Blair :(
After she told me this, I told her some good news. I told her about my night at Faith and about Jesse. She was happy for me. Thanks sweets!
We parted our ways and I called Kris if she wants to go to Target with me cause I had to buy some stuff for the condom project.

At target, I bought a box and that was about it. After Target, we went to Ranch 99, bought me some food and some drinks. On our way to Ranch 99, I couldn't see anything because of the thickness of the fog that surrounds the area. The road was a bit tough to drive on. We bought the necessary items and I realized that I didn't get to eat that day...I believe I only ate like a power bar and some water...so I had to resove it by eating Chinese food. I ate with a quickness and it tasted really good cause I know that I was hungry. LOL...We stopped by the bakery and bought this cute round of cheesecake with fruits on top. Finally, we got home and we ate part of the cheesecake and we watched Korean videos and I left her house almost 11PM.

That was my day yesterday...TA DA!

Today, I have to go and check if I have a class and call my friend Caroline and tell her if we do or we don't have class...First I must check the class and then I will have to call her...

Later..time to go!

I didn't want to go class at 4PM today cause I felt the urge to nap. But instead, I got myself up and check my emails from my other accounts. I didn't realized that one of my good buds asked me to turn in his paper cause he has been ill (an evil cold). The paper was due last Wednesday and I hope that I didn't fuck anything up, especially our friends or even his grades. Will someone just beat me?! So, I went to the library frantically and printed out his paper. After, I turned in his paper and headed for my 4PM class. TO BE CONT....


I can't go on...my eyes are heavy and it keeps closing..so I will have to continue this tomorrow...

Later....it's time for bed

Sun Day's Disasters

Going home is a such a disaster. I can't stand the weather at my mom's place. It's too hot. Work was a disaster. I didn't get to do my regular routine because I was banned from the fitting room.

Here goes: It all statrted on Saturday cause I feeling like SHIT and it work added more to it. ARGH! The customers in the fitting room are all TOILET PAPER ASS WIPES. I can't stand them. They are rude, annoying, and abnoxious...I remember one of the customers...she was a total bitch! She was waving at me like I was a dog and she said out loud to me, "COME HERE NOW, I NEED A ROOM!" She's rude as fuck. She complained about everything including the clothes that she tried on..which was about 25 pieces (I counted!) and she left it all over the room and on the floor. She didn't even buy anything and then she has a nerve to complain to my manager that everything in the store sucks. FUCK HER! I was so pissed that I started ranting and raving out loud and my manager heard me..I didn't get introuble..she just said that tomorrow..I will be taking a break from the fittingroom.

I don't understand why stupid dumbass people like that are breathing. Man, if I ever meet her parents I would bitch slap them for creating such a horrible piece of Shit. But I realized that everyone is entitled to live and I can't do anything about it.

After work, I went straight home. I got my things ready and then I was headed for my other home (SF). I told my mom that I probably wouldn't be home until Saturday cause I will be very busy with school. She told me that I should atleast try to come home on Wednesday like I usually do. I told her that I will try and see if I can make it. I got to the my other home @ 9. My group called and told me that they will be meeting with me tonight at 9:30 to brainstorm some ideas about our project.

For the following project. our group will be needing:

-Red, Plain, and Blue condoms...don't asked! LOL
-Pie Tin
-Cardboard
-KY Jelly
-Flour
-Apple Scent
-Food coloring
and there's more...

I didn't get to sleep last until 2ish cause I was thinking...oh, it's something very good. I talked on the phone with Jesse. (Hi Jesse!) I like talking to him. He's a really RAWKING guy. Hmmmm...thinking thinking thinking

Monday Morning Madness

Had to wake up very early cause I have to pick a friend up cause she left her keys here in my dorm. ACK! I got directions to her house and I still got lost. I don't really know Daly City that well, but I discovered a little place that I would like to visit. But I called her and she helped me find her house. Made it! I took her to school and we were 5 mins. late for class, but that's okay cause we didn't really miss anything.

Here I am now in my room updating my page...Time for me to go for class and then I will have to go to the store to buy some condoms...