A Sound in the Midst of Silence

2003-04-23T09:13:00.000-07:00

TODAY....

I should be heading for school....around 12ish. Don't know what time exactly cause my Mudder told me to wait for her. So here I am at home and updating my page and talking to my buddy.

I just realized that school is going to take most of my life, but one day it will pay off when I become a lawyer...corporate or immigration? Don't know exactly what I would like to do...leaning towards Immigration Law.

I need some coffee...STARBIZZLE's sounds so good right now!

2003-04-23T09:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday:

Tuesday morning, I arrived at school as it was planned...early in the morning to work on my paper in the computer lab at skewl. I arrived at school around 6:45 in the morning. GAWD, SOOOOO DAMN EARLY!

I rushed with the quickness to the lab and luckil noone was really there yet. Some how people manage to go to skewl very early in the morning and work on their papers...BUNCH OF PROCRASTINATORS! hah hah...::pointing at myself:: I never thought that people would actually wake very early in order to finsh or start on a paper that was due within a few hours.

So I finished my paper at 8AM and actually had one extra page. The professor said five pages, but you know I can't seem to put every single thought in to that little amount. I needed atleast one more page.

Class starts in 10 minutes and instead of going there straight to class...I decided to have coffee and a Bensons cause I was very proud to pull myself out of that situation....REMEMBER: DON'T PROCRASTINATE! Surely, this happens to everyone...I know it has happened to me several times this semester...NO FOCUS...ATTENTION TO PCN! j/k! So, I arrived to class late about 20 mins late...I wanted to enjoy the nice day so I took my time smoking that Benson and sipping that coffee. I can't help it! The professor was talking about 17 Syllables and Yoneko's Earthquake...I knew what they were talking about cause I read the stories and took notes...I wasn't clueless and never would be when it comes to discussions and literary analyses. After 30 mins. of class...IT SUDDENLY ENDED! I was a bit confused as to why it was cut short. She said that discussion had already happened and now the viewing of the film will begin next week.

So, I left thinking that this day was going by fast. I had 20 mins. to spare til my next class and I was sitting down infront of Burke Hall when this stranger came up to me and asked me if I danced....OUT OF THE BLUE! I was surprised and told the person that I don't dance and don't beling in a group. :::I WISH I DID!::: <------said it in my mind...This person asked if I wanted to join and handed me a flyer. I kinda knew why I was approached...it was because of the outfit that I was wearing....I copied Justin T's style: army green shirt, brown and cream baseball tee, dark denim pants, black rag, army green old skewl mesh hat, one leather poor boy black glove, blk and army green plastic bracelets, blk cuff and and a studded belt....FASHIONABLY STOOD OUT! I had my big headphones as well and at the same time was listening to Justin T's CD. Or it could be that I was dancing and messing around with my buddie pal, Katrina. We sort of dancing...

So next, class came and it was alright...watched two films "Her Uprooting Roots Her" and "Tagumpay"...after this class was my human sex class...we had a guestspeaker and she was an educated, well established (married and kids), had her own business....CLASSY ASS PROSTITUTE! Seriously, she was very educated...got her degree in Psychology and is working on writing a book. It was very interesting...I would never think of a prostitute that acutally had class. She was very educated and presented herself very well. INTERESTING!

I sat there taking notes and made sure that I captured her every word...I have to write two papers for this class. I haven't even started on one. I need to get started and finish this shit up cause the papers are due May 6.

My last class is Mass Media...I couldn't believe that the test was easy. I finished it and watched videos again. I finally got out of school before 7PM.....so that means I was at skewl for 12 HOURS! DAMN, THAT'S HALF THE DAY!

Note: My classes aren't that easy. Eventhough, it seems like I have been watching videos the whole day...there's a catch to it...PAPERS! It usually is 5 to 10 pages...variations apply!

2003-04-21T22:29:00.000-07:00

before I start anything..I just have to say that I'm fucked!

I haven't started on my paper and it's due tomorrow. It's due at 8AM! My computer doesn't have the necessary functions that I need inorder to type this paper. I don't understand why certain computers don't have the easily accesible MIcrosoft Word program. I need the program inorder to type the paper and then save it on a disk. Thus, bringing to school and printing it! But I don't have the program and the damn printer doesn't seem to work! So yeah, I'M FUCKED!

Well not really...come think of it! I actually started on my paper and I have two pages done. It's a five page paper on the story called "And The Soul Shall Dance". It's a comparison paper using three different mediums. I read the story, the play, and watched the film. I have to analyze the relationship of two characters using the three mediums.

Another thing is that I have a mid-term for my Asians In Mass Media class tomorrow. It's not that difficult cause it's an open notes and book test. But I haven't really read the articles that are needed in order to answer the questions in the test tomorrow. So yeah! Once again, I AM FUCKED!

blah blah blah....it's all good some how I manage to turn things around and work in super pressure, which is not good. I tried working ahead of time, but it seems like I don't get the best grades so I wait til the last minute to do my shit. LOL! Nah just kidding, I actually do better when I work ahead of time.

Today:

I woke up early and paid for my fix it ticket and showed the cop that I fixed my head light! FINALLY! It took me a long time to fix the damn light!
I paid $10.00 and then after that I went straight to Frisko. I had to go downtown and pick up important papers for my mother cause my sister needs them for college.
Right after downtown, went straight to school, read for a bit, wrote part of my paper, and stayed there til' my head started hurting. I actually did a lot of shit today. I couldn't believe it. I did errands that did not even have to deal with school. I should have done the school shit first cause I can't afford to get low ass grades. I consider Bs low grades cause I need to maintain my GPA and go to Law School! OKAY!?

That's it for now...time to work on my paper via email and just fix it in the computer lab tomorrow morning...

2003-04-20T18:42:00.000-07:00

OKAY, I can't stand the people around me right now.....

I AM ANNOYED AS HELL! MY SISTER IS BEING A TOTAL BITCH AND TODAY I AM SUPPOSE TO BE A GOOD PERSON! I DON'T KNOW...EVERY TIME I TRIED TO BE GOOD AND WHATNOT....IT ENDS UP BEING THROWN BACK AT MY FACE AND THEN HELL BREAKS LOSE! I WAS HAVING MY PEACE AND QUIET AND HERE SHE COMES AND STARTS ANNOYING AND ASKING ME STUPID QUESTIONS. I HAVE A LOT OF SHIT TO DO AND I TOLD TO ASK ME LATER ON. INSTEAD, SHE COMES RIGHT AT ME AND STARTS ASKING ME SO MANY QUESTIONS...SO I FUCKING YELLED AT HER AND TOLD HER: "GET OUT OF MY FACE, LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE, YOU STUPID ANNOYING BITCH!" YEAH AND SO?! NO WONDER MY MOM IS ALWAYS ANNOYED...IT'S BECAUSE OF HER. SUCH A BRAT! KARMA ON HER ASS!

BTW, IF YOU LOOK IN THE DICTIONARY FOR THE WORD "BITCH" IT'S MEANING IS MARIAN CORPUS, JERICHO'S LIL SISTER!

ANOTHER THING, WHEN I SAY "I DON'T KNOW" THAT MEANS "I DON'T KNOW"....I HAVEN'T MADE UP MY MIND YET TO ANSWER THE QUESTION THAT YOU'VE ASKED ME. "I DON'T KNOW" MEANS IT'S NOT A "YES" OR "NO". IT MEANS "I DON'T KNOW! I AM STILL THINKING ABOUT IT!" THAT'S ALL! NOTHING MORE OR LESS!

I CAN'T STAND IT! ACK!

GOSH, I'M JUST ONE VISCIOUS ASS BITCH TODAY....YEAH AND SO?!

2003-04-20T11:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Easter everyone!

One important element that I have to do today is fix the headlight of my car and clean my baby!

I'm not doing anything special today cause my mom is busy working and my sister is kicking it with her buddies. I'm going to be stuck at home and just chill. DO MAD HOMEWORK and sew my costumes.

That's about it...

any updates I will post it immediately.

UCBERZERKELY's PCN

mad shout outs to those who were in it! GREAT JOB! Enjoyed watching it, especially the kid skit. TWINS were dope! The acting was great...I haven't seen so many people yesterday. Some of these people were old skool buddies that I haven't seen for a very long time. I was glad that I met these folks once again. Christy....is your hand okay from painting all that props? LOL

Well I have to get going...have a wonderful Easter and enjoy your day!

2003-04-18T13:10:00.000-07:00

Here's the 411...

I have to do the following before the new week comes around..

buy headlights for my car cause one of them is out and you know I can't just change one...have to change both!
go to fabric store, buy the fabrics that I need to create my costumes for PCN
go to BIG5, buy knee pads for one of the dances...practicing sliding on your knees will fuck you up! THAT SHIT HURTS LIKE A BITCH! Oh yeah, buy black sweats for this dance, too.
start writing two papers (Women In The Media and Arts, and Human Sexuality)
start reading Joy Luck Club

damn I have so much to do...

TODAY

I woke up pretty late today around 11AM. I went clubbing last night at the usual spot. I went to sleep at 3AM. It was very interesting cause it was popping even though it was the third week of the month. The only reason that I could come up with was that these people are on SPRING BREAK. DAMN! It just reminds me of how stank ass my school is. I had my break like the second week of March. It was HELLA early. The thought of people enjoying their break this week makes me ill.

I have to get ready soon cause I need to go and do some errands. It's very important that I get a chance to change my lights cause I got a fix it ticket and my date to pay and show proof is tomorrow. I have to get an officer to check the correction and he has the approve it.

I also have to make a few phone calls to my San Jo folks and Vallejo folks...

If I do have time, I need to check out the mall and see if I can find something interesting to wear for Bezerkeley's PCN tomorrow. I can't wait to see it!

Go to get going...need to get ready!

2003-04-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

Blogger Mawnin' To Y'all...

Strangely enough, I fell asleep quite early last night, around 930 ish. I was really exhuasted from the past few days that I have been up late in the early morning hours. I was trying to read for my presentation that I shall be giving tomorrow, but instead I fell asleep. I woke up about 2:30 in the morning and went back to sleep. I was awaken by my mother, who wanted my to go to the bank early in the morning and get her some cash. BTW, I was awake at 7AM...that's still late cause usually I am awake by 530 AM to get ready for school. I am sooo use to waking up that early that its a daily routine for me.

Getting back to the story, I got up and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and grabbed a jacket afterwards and took off for the bank. Realizing that I forgot my wallet, I had to turn back and grab it. I went to the bank and there was someone there standing outside infront of the bank. I didn't want to get out immediately cause I might get mugged or shot. So, I waited for a few minutes.....waited and waited... Finally, he left and seemed upset cause when I opened the door...he was cussing very loud. He got in his car and sped off.

I grabbed some cash from my mom's account ( a large amount ) enough for to fly to SD and stay there for the weekend with the hotel paid off...HAH HAH! She has to use it to fix the car. DAMN!

THE CITY, THE DRIVE, and MOTHER

I should be spending much of my morning with my mom cause she needs to go to the city. I didn't really want to go with her cause I have to drive to the city twice today. I have to go back home and drop her off and then come back again to school. She needs to go to the Philippine Consulate to get some papers dated and signed. Afterwards, I have to dirve her back home and dirve back to the city. Hopefully, our drive will be smooth. Before the drive to the city, we have to go to Kinko's to get some papers copied.

BTW, support Better Luck Tomorrow and here are the reviews. Has anyone seen the film? IF so, let me know what you think...sign the comments box.

I gots to go cause I have get ready to drive my mom to Frisko.

2003-04-15T00:44:00.000-07:00

Today was an interesting day....

I haven't talked on the phone sooooooooo much. Gosh, it was ringing off the hook. O got calls from Michelle, Sonny, and so many more. I must have used all my minutes...LOL!

I worked today cause I had to cover my co-workers shift. Actually, we traded shifts cause I am hoping to attend UCBerk's PCN. I don't exactly know if it's Friday or Saturday. Hopefully, it's this Friday and if not...I will have to take my shift back. Just Kidding!

It was really slow at work. I must have cleaned the store, folded every piece of clothing, fixed the jewelry place, swifered the floors and counted the registers. DAMN! All that work... it was fun!

Right after work, I went out to dinner with co-workers cause one of them just recently celebrated her 21st birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA! You are legal to drink now....:::WINK::: :::WINK::: LOL!

Now, it's time for me to bounce out of here!

2003-04-13T23:04:00.000-07:00

It's Sunday night....

I realized that I have to do the following:

Read Seventeen Syllables (two stories: 17 Syllables and Yoneko's Earthquake) before Tuesday and Our Sexuality (Ch. 14 and 15)....I hoping that I can finish all of this before Thursday.

I have to get my shit together and it's crunch time for school is about to end. I have PCN to deal with.

BTW, I still have to make my costume for one of the dances...UGHHHH!

Stress Stress Stress Stress

I shouldn't stress...I just have to figure out ways to keep on track.

I was talking to one of my friends online and he came upon a new picture of Christina Aguilera. What do you think of her new look?

2003-04-11T09:34:00.000-07:00

Good Morning...

Well actually it's suppose to a be a great morning, but I was awaken by the loud voices in the kitchen. Screams and yells woke me up in my deep slumber. My mother and sister are fighting in the background. It's never gotten this bad. I haven't known any instances where my little sister talked back and cussed at my mom. It was really wierd and yet frightening at the same time. My sister slammed her door and shook the entire house. I can still the reprocussions from it. I was trying to listen to what the aruguement was about and it always seems to be the car. My sister needs the car to go to school (she's in high school, senior to be exact) and my mom needs the car to go to work. My mom would actually take the van, but some how it won't start because my sister managed to fuck it up. I don't know what she did, but the van won't start.

So, my sister raised her voice and said: "Go FUCKING take the car!" "TAKE IT! TAKE IT!" ....slight paused "BITCH!".... raising her voice again. My mom then responds: "BASTOS!" "GAGO!" "Anong klase na tao ka!?" "Hayop!" "Umalis kana!" "BASTOS!".....slight pause and I can hear her sobs...she starts to cry...I suddenly had a temeprature rise and I can't help but wanting to choke my stupid little sister. I wanted to beat her ass. Actually, my sister never had a hand laid on her. She was brought up with only warnings or the two hour interrogation by mom. She then comes out of her room and starts screaming: "FUCK, TAKE THE CAR!" "TAKE IT!" "TAKE IT!"....in all it was the same words that was repeated over and over....I finally had enough! I rose out of bed....started to yell at her and said: "YOU ARE ONE RUDE, UNEDUCATED, SELFISH LIL BRAT!" I couldn't say "bitch" cause it was overly used in the conversation between my mom and sister.... I grabbed my sister and pushed her to the couch and she stands up anf pushes me....OUT OF CONTROL....I wanted to sock her ass! But I know I couldn't do it cause my mom would start yelling at me and then the tables would turn. I would be the one in trouble...So, I yell at my sister: "I'll TAKE YOU TO SCHOOL and TAKE MY PHONE SO YOU CAN CALL ME WHEN YOU NEED TO GET PICKED UP!"...I grabbed the keys and off we go...

In the car, I started yelling at her...told her that she was very rude and that's she's a bitch and a little piece of shit....I imagined slamming her had on the dashboard (it was a little to weird for me, but when anger takes over, you can't really do anything....only your mind takes control and your actions occur) and hoping that she will get some sense in her fucked up head....but I suddenly stopped cause I know that if I continue...I would have done it...she became silent the rest of the ride to school...I don't know what she was thinking, but she was very quiet...

My sister can't seem to understand that without my mom travelling to far places for work, she wouldn't have survived. It was my mom all along that support my sister and I. It was my mom who actually helped her with her car. It was my mom, who is struggling with really bad rheumatoid artritis, that kept this family alive. It was my mom who has been there for my sister and Iever since we were young. My father? No where to be found!

Interesting morning...don't you say?

2003-04-06T20:03:00.000-07:00

gebus...

it's been a while since I used this journal...it's usually the same reason: school, work and PCN.

I actually been so active with school and outside of school. PCN for some reason has taken up most of my time....I need to figure out a way to balance everything including my practice sessions. This years PCN seems very different, I can't point it out...but I know that it's DIFFERENT. I think it's the people and the atmosphere....may be it's the VIBE.

PCN...what to do?
This year I've decided to lay low and not take too many dances at once. I decided to stick with two dances and the acting. I have a specific role that I am playing in the skit and hopefully it will turn out okay....I can't wait to shock some people with the character that I've got in the play...the role seems degrading and it's going to affect how people are going to view me. HAH HAH!

The venue for PCN this year is located at Riordan High in Frisko...the date is May 17th (freaking week before finals!) I hope can find ways of studying and doing PCN at the same time...REALLY WORRIED!

School...I don't know what to do...SOOOOOOO BEHIND with CLASSES this semester...I haven't been focusing for some strange reason for the past semesters I have managed to be on top of the schedule. Sometimes, I have been ahead of the schedule!

Papers and quizzes every single week just plain sucks ass! I can't stand that I have to read and read and read...then write 10 to 15 pages worth of papers each time. UGHHHH!

Other than the homework and other things...school seems BLAH this semester...

Wonderful world of AEO...

American Eagle Outfitters friends and family is coming up...so many coupons to give out and yet I have noone to give to...ah here's a thought...pass it around school...may be these poor starving broke ass students need a 20 percent off discount...DOES ANYONE need a coupon? cause I have lots...

There's too many kewl ass shit that I need to buy at work but I am sooooooo broke that I just wait for the BIG Sales that we have...those discounts are sooooo dope!

NEW NEW NEW NEW

Reading: NO NO BOY
Watching: the first season of SIX FEET UNDER and the second season of QAF
Listening: Lil Kim, Sean Paul, Justin Timberlake, and Common

I need to finish the camera that I have use during the trip to San Diego and Tijuana....some of the pictures there are valuable cause i took artistic pictures...I need to figure out how to finish the film...

GO TO GO!

2003-03-19T08:35:00.000-08:00

A couple weeks later....

Within the past couple of weeks this is what has happened...

Didn't make it for Cha-Cha or Modern for PCN....I'm not that suprised!
Practicing for 3 cultural dances
Practicing for the Miss Lil' Philippines Pageant Skit
Inbetween insert: homework, working, sleeping, eating, and driving

Went for a weekend get away for Jimmy's birthday: San Diego and Tijuana

To do list:

Pick up pictures from the SD and TJ trip
Read 1000 pieces of gold
Start writing Mass Media essay
Call ATT to fix my phone

Let's see how many I can finish before the day ends....hopefully 3 of them!

What's new:

Finished Reading Letters to Montgomery Clift by Noel Alumit for the second time
Reading: Rice
Listening: India Arie, Busta Rhymes, Tamia, and Christina Aguillera
Watching: Six Feet Under box set and QAF Season 2

I'll tell you about the weekend get away later, all I know is that the title of the trip is EXXXXXtra Viscious! (inside joke)

2003-03-03T09:32:00.000-08:00

I forgot that today is the day that I will find out if I made it for Cha-Cha and for any parts of the play....
I hope that I get any parts for the skits for the upcoming SFSU's PCN. As for Cha-Cha, if I make it in I have no idea what I am going to do cause I thought I did okay on the tryouts. Let's just cross our fingers, okay?!

2003-03-03T09:28:00.000-08:00

Good Ol' Monday Morning

Things needed to be done:

Go to the bank for my mother and drop off her check
Call work if checks came in...if yes, go to work and pick check
Buy the items I put on hold
Go to bank and drop off check
Head for Starbeezles
Study and read for Mass Media class
Read 1000 pieces of gold
Go to Dance Mission with James

I have soooo many things that I have to do today....my main goal is to study and read the necessary articles for my Mass Media quiz tomorrow. I

Past Weekend of Chillaxin'

The past weekend (which was yesterday and Saturday), I decided to stay home and chill. I was suppose to go to a get together in the city, but I was doing homework and fell asleep. I woke up Sunday morning and I was soooo confused as to what had hapened on Saturday night. I woke up with the computer on and marks on my face. DAMN keyboard! UGH! So, it's Sunday morning...no one was home cause everyone went to work. I decided to make breakfast of pancakes! YUM! After breakfast, I went back to finish up on my homework. I had work at 2PM and got home at 7:30PM. I gave Michelle a call and wanted to know what she was doing. She wasn't doing anything and invited me to come over. I told her that I would come over after the Simpsons. I stayed at Michelle's house for a lil' bit andate he food...LOL! She offered, hah hah and you know that food wll never turn its back on you! Got home at 10:30ish and went to bed. Actually, I was talking to someone on the phone and we talked for a good 50 mins...:: BIG SMILE ::

Go to get going and get ready for my day of travels...

2003-02-25T21:45:00.000-08:00

Long Day but it was worth every single minute and hour.

I enjoyed my day today because I actually practice for one of the cultural dances that I am planning to be in for PCN. Tomorrow night, I am going to try out for the Cha-Cha.

One of my classes was cancelled today and I don't know why. For some reason the professor for this class is struggling on how to teach th class and that she's not on track with the syllabus that she gave us. We had a paper due two weeks ago and she supposedly sent the necessary steps on what she wants on the paper, but she hasn't sent it. Noone actually knows what's going on in the class. She's given us so many readings and she hasn't ven discussed any of the readings. I talked to a few students in the cass and everyone that I talked to said that she is a very disorganized person. I really don't know what to say, but I agree with the people that I talked to.

Had my lunch at the quad and then moved infront of the Psychology building. I needed some quiet time to read cause it was noisy at the quad. I read some of the articles for my Asia Americans mass media class. Audrey called me and wanted to be walked to the Humanities building. I took her and once again I sat at this quiet place. I watched the people pass by and let me tell you...Cell phones gallore! Everyone was on their cell phone. I remember this one guy..he was talking so loud that everyone could hear his conversation. Talk about telling everyone his business. I wanted to say SHUT THE HELL UP! Everyone was getting annoyed by the guy...Keep your conversations to yourself.

I had to leave cause I realized that I had practice for one of the dances. I went to the PACE office and met I new person. I forgot her name. We had a great conversation. She is half Filipino and half Puerto Rican. We both had practice for the same dance. She did really well for just the first day of practice cause she got the dance down. Practice didn't end til 5PM and I missed the first hour of class. It's my Asian American Mass Media class. A three hour class cause it only meets for a day.

Class ended early. We just reviewed for the midterm next week. I got home and took a shower....here I am now Updatin this page.

Tomorrow, I will have to let everyone know how I did with Cha Cha. It's another long day tomorrow cause I have papers to do, pages to read, and some studying.

Great Evening!

2003-02-24T09:23:00.000-08:00

Morning....

Didn't sleep til' 3 AM an now I'm already up...I should be resting and just sleeping since I don't have any sessions today. I wanted to go to dance mission today, but can't go cause I have to work at 3PM to 8PM. I have to work on the bustforms. Dressing up those sexy ass mannequins just turns me on...LOL!

I need to finish up my homework....GAWSH, I really don't like my Individual Rights and the Constitution class. It's the hardest session that I have this semester and it takes up all my time. I have to read and anlyze the consitution andthe professor wants the depth when translating the constitution. Another is that I have to write case briefs and also attend court sessions. Too much work...and it's only one class.

I have another semester left and then I can graduate. I didn't realize that I have one semester until I spoke to both my counselors. I have two cause I'm a double major student (Asian American and Political Science Majors). I am hoping with the grades that I have I can be one of the top students when I graduate.

Speaking of this semester, PCN (Pilipino Cultural Night) is coming up soon. Try outs for some of the dances (cultural, modern, and cha cha) and also for acting are this week. I really don't know if I am going to go all out this year cause last year I did. I acted, danced, and did some of the props. It was a lot, but it was worth it. This year I am trying out for acting, modern, and cha cha. I am really hoping that I make it for modern. I need to practice some of the routines that I learned when I was at dance mission.

Well I have to get going cause I need to finish some homework.

2003-02-21T10:18:00.000-08:00

Good Morning!

Happy Friday :)

I got back home early this morning about 3 AM from the club. I woke up early in the morning cause I had to drive my lil' sister to school. I always do this every Friday. Every single time, I can't seem to go back to sleep and so I just stay up the rest of the day. Usually, the feeling of sleepiness doesn't hit me til mid day like around 2 or 3...take the power nap and then do some homework.

I heard that Jocelyn Enriquez was suppose to be at Stonestown today (Tower Records). She has a new album out, All My Life. I want to go and check her out and see how she looks and want to hear her latest CD. She hasn't been in the music scene for a long time, but her songs are still being played in the radio. One of the very few Asians (Filipina to be exact) that made an impact in the music industry.

I have noticed that Asians have been struggling in the music industry. Infact, many of the minorities have struggled to be included in the main stream music industry. What are the causes for minorities to struggle in main stream music industry? I know for the fact that there are people out there that are fans. So, we as a community need to figure out ways to break through and make it into mainstream America. How do you feel?

2003-02-20T15:07:00.000-08:00

So it's Thursday and I am finally home....

I had to drop a class this semester cause I have to many things going on at once. First, I have 19 units this semester. I only go to Tuesday and Thursday classes. Tuesday is my full day and it starts at 8AM and doesn't end til 7PM. I have work and it's almost full time. Next, I have PCN to worry about because I would like to act and dance(both cultural, modern, and cha cha). Try out are next week and I am hoping that I can make atleast cha cha, but ultimately I am going to modern! Do the DAMN thang BOY! Lastly, I have my internship. GEBUS, sooooo many things at once. Some how I always manage to balance everything out at the end and I am very lucky that I usually don't end up in some sort of nervous break down....

Going out tonight and practice some of the dance move that I learn from yesterday's dance class

DANCE IS THE MISSION

I wasn't fully aware that certain hiphop classes were being held in the mission district. I learned and heard it from my buddy-o-pal of mine. James told me about these classes and so yesterday I decided to join him. I really enjoyed the beginning and the advance classes. Since I am a beginner and have never taken any classes, I felt so out of place. People around me knew the routine and was dancing their asses off including James. Mr. I know how to dance but I pretend that I don't know how so that my friend will not be angry at me! Hmmmph! That's okay cause I know that James is super duper dope and he got gigs! The boy can move EEEEREYTHING! So I watch myself and made sure not to make myself look foolish. I actually got most of the moves down. I was impressed with myself. PROPS! As for the advance, I was so terrified cause I seriously could not get some of the moves down. I was getting irritated but I never give up that easily.

After the Dance Mission, James and I talked about coming back ad taking more classes cause we both are eager to learn dance moves and show them off...LOL! We both are coming back on Monday...hopefully I will see some of you guys there!

Taking off to take a power nap...

2003-02-13T13:30:00.000-08:00

It's one day away from Valentine's Day...what are your plans?

I don't have anything planned cause my valentine is in Hawaii. Busy with work and it's serious business. I have been talking to this person for awhile and I am hoping that we've established something and if not then let it just flow like the rivers that go through this country. My friends are throwing a party and I don't know if should go cause I would like to have some time alone and reflect on a lot of things in my life. I would also like some quiet time and talk to this person.

Note: In resopnse to this person's privacy and my respect for this person, I am not going to reveal this person's name.

I talked to this person last night and we had a great conversation. Talked about certain trips that we are both planning to take in the future. I talked about a certain book that I would like to get and hopefully this person gets the hint that I would like for this person to get for me. LOL! I know such a mooocher!

Have you ever heard of a book called: Letters To Montgomery Clift by Alumit. I recently heard about from a friend and he happened to mention this book and I was very interested in reading this book because I did a little bit of research and the book is very interesting. If you would like to know more about this book, then CLICK HERE.

Hopefully, someone out there feels the book that I mentioned.

GTG....later!

2003-02-12T11:01:00.000-08:00

I was sittin at home and bored once again. I should be reading and doing homework, but I refuse to do homework! Instead, I use my time to go online and chat with friends, create another online journal: Mind Trip, and take funy ass quizzes.

I took a recent quiz and this is what my results was:

Gay Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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GAY BEAR...gosh how dsfunctional Am I? Don't answer that!

2003-02-11T13:46:00.000-08:00

SFSU, StonesTown, and DownTown San Francisco Trip Yesterday

I went to downtown to return a few purchases that I shouldn't have done. I returned a jacket from FCUK and a couple of shirts at UrbanOutFitters.

Before downtown, I took a small trip to Stonestown because I also had to return a two books that was suppose to be a present for someone, but things did not seem to work between that person and I. I returned the books thinking that I would cash back. Instead, I recieved stroe credit even though I paid in check. The situation was that the books must be returned within 30 days and you can get cash back, but I did not return the books within the set time period. I waited almost two months to return the books. In return, I bought two CDs. ZWAN and The Streets. Two rawking CDs! I thought that the coming back of Billy Corgan is fawking awesome. The voice of Corgan while driving home gave me a soothing and relaxing feeling. The feeling that was great until I suddenly hit the mid day commuter get the fuck out of my way you stank ass bitch of a traffic. UGH! Instead of troubling myself with the stress, I blasted the sounds of Zwan in my car and rolled thw windows down so that everyone around me can hear such a wonderful voice. I miss The Smashing Pumpkins!

Okay, back to the beginning of the story....I decided to park my car in Stonestown because I did not want to pay for parking at school. Instead of wasting 5 bucks, I used it buy pizza and pay for my muni ticket. I first went to FCUK because I had to get rid of such an expensive jacket. I was feeling very guilty for purchasing a dope jacket that cost a bit too much. I paid in check and the girl that was helping me did not have any clue how to return my jacket. She kept calling the manager to come up and help her with the return. I felt bad for the poor girl, who I think is very new to the store cause I don't recall seeing her at all during the times that I went in to look at the clothes. The manager told me that I was going to receive a check in the mail since I paid in check. BUMMER! I was hoping to receive cash cause most of the stores give cash back when one has paid in check. Interesting that the manager could not look me in the eye while he was telling me this sad news. After FCUK, I went to UrbanOutfitters. I return this vintage shirt that i bought a while back because I can't seem to find anything to wear with it. I left Urban with two shirts and they were both dope ass shirts. One was brown that said "Sho Nuff" and the other was an army green colored shirt with a orange colored headphones pix. I wish I had a camera to take those pix. The whole time I was downtown, I was feeling in a rush because I had to go back to school before 2PM and have enough time to go back home without hitting the traffic. Instead, I came back to school around 3. I rushed out thinking that I would not catch the traffic, but I did.

Well its time for me to get going cause I have class soon....

2003-01-14T18:09:00.000-08:00

Welcome back....

I haven't had the time to update this page once again. I don't ever take the time to update any of my pages. Damn! I guess I am just really lazy or i really don't have the time at all.

I recently took a trip to LA with a whole bunch of folks (Vallejo and San Jose). I got back late Sunday night from the trip and eversince I got back I got sick. VERY ILL! I didn't get any sleep at all cause all they did was party, drink, and smoke (not cigs!). Tha whole entire weekend I must have gotten 8 hours of sleep.

GOING TO LA LA LAND....
Chellebrity and I left the Vee about 2 ish cause we had to stop by to check up on her mom (she recently had surgery). Before I met up with Chellebrity, I had to run to the mall and make the necessary last purchases for the trip. I ended up buying oe than I needed. I bought an Abercrombie fit and of course American Eagle (since I work for this company). Afterwards, I rushed out the mall and went to Raley's to buy some flowers and a nice "get well soon" card for Chellebrity's mom. I called her on my way to her house but she was still asleep, I couldn't understand how she could still be asleep when we only have a few hours left before we head to San Jose to meet with the rest of the folks. I knocked on the door and she opened the door still asleep and immediately went back to her room to get some more sleep. I talked to her and made sure that she was awake. I told her to get up cause she has to take a shower, pack her clothes, and visit her mom at the hospital. I couldn't say anythng else so told her that I had to run as cause I haven't packed for the trip. As soon as I got home, I grabbed the bags and hoped that my mom wouldn't see the clothes that I bought myself. I have way tooooooo many fits and that my room is so packed with clothes that there are no other places to put them. I packed my clothes carefully making sure that there are 4 fits (friday night, saturday morning, saturday night, and sunday morning) and shoes as well to go with the fits. I had to bring a big ass bag and a backpack cause of all the things that I had to bring for the trip. Once I finished packing, I called Chellebrity and made sure she was up, packed, and ready to go. She told me that she was almost all set and that all she needed to do was take a shower. I told her to hurry her ass up cause we are running a bit late and plus the person who was suppose to drive us to San Jose was late as well. After 20 mins, Chellebrity called me and said that Bagel and her are going to head to the hospital cause we are running late. So I had to wait again. A few minutes later, Bagel called me and said that he was going to pick me up so that we won't have to waste anymore time. I was soooooo glad that he did cause I was feelin very anxious and couldn't stay still. The time was past 1 already and we had to be at San Jose before 3 PM. I decided to wait for Bagel outside cause it would be faster. As soon as I was about to head out, I hear a car and knew that it was Bagel. I spoke to my mom and we both said our "Byes". She reminded me over and over that I should be careful and that I should do any drugs, drinking, or anything else that could possibly harm my ass.

To be continued....

2003-01-03T17:17:00.000-08:00

About Last Night...

The club stirred echoes of laughter
The music was pumping heavily sedated beats
Beats that controlled your body, mind, and soul
Loss of the senses due to the intoxicating liquids
Bodies pressed together in a small room
Cliques staying in one certain area of the club
Same sexes dancing together
Opposite sexe dancing together
Hips and asses shaking
Checking everyone
Eyes searching for the right one
Checking everyone
Questions are raised: who's that? what's his name?

Check out my friend's homepage: PhreakyBetch...just advertising it for him...

2003-01-03T17:05:00.000-08:00

Current Status:

In the ears: LLCoolJ and JayZ
In the eyes: Lord of the Rings version 1 and 2
In the mind: The Hobbit and Eye of the Fish
Through the emotions: Happy, but tired...

Alright Alright Alight....my apologies for those people who kept writing me emails and asking me to update my page...I haven't had the time (yeah right! LOL)...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! [what's your resolution?]

I haven't been able to do anything since I have been trying to get my life and everything else organized cause that's one of the three resolutions that I plan on committing this year.

Three resolutions: 1) Lose 30 more lbs. 2) Stop Stoging 3) Get Organized

These three are the most important decisions in my life because I know it will affect me greatly. So far it's been good cause I am actually sticking to the plan. I haven't really stopped smoking like cold turkey...gradually I am slowly stoging like one or two cigs every other day....it's very hard to stop this bad habbit...but hopefully one day will come when I don't want to stoge ever again. As for losing the weight, I have been exercising (playing tennis and jogging)...I stopped drinking soda and water is the only drink for me...eating healthier as well. No fast food at all...just healthy food...I have been sticking to the plan and hopefully it's working. My other friend Celly-Chelle and I made this vow on New Years and I know that we both can commit to whatever we say. We both have strength, power and our motivation is each other.

Today...

I woke up pretty early today (around 9AM), even though I went to sleep late (around 4 AM) cause I had to drive my relatives to work. After dropping them off, I decided to go back home an cath more Zzzzz cause I felt the tiredness enveloping my body. I woke up around 12 ish before my mom arrived to take her lunch break and head to her second job. As soon as I woke up, I could hear he laughter and the happy melodic voices of my sister, my cuzzo, and her friend in the kitchen cooking for lunch. I washed my face and brushed my teeth and slowly crept in the kitchen. The music blasting to the beats of JayZ and carefully switching to the booty shaking beats of BirdMan and P.Diddy....what more can I ask for! Just waking up to the sounds of my favorties songs...LOL! As for the rest of the day, I have been chillen. I called Celly-Chelle if she wanted to go to the mall cause I need to pick up my paycheck. She agreed and now I am sitting here, chatting online, updating my page, and waiting for her phone call....hopefully she will call soon.

Next week is the long awaited trip to go to LA and wreak havoc downsouth...can't wait!

2002-11-20T14:11:00.000-08:00

I was looking at other people's websites via BLOGGER and I found a link . You need to check out it cause it's hella funny.

Class started already and I am being very bad cause I am still contimplating whether or not I should go. But thinking about it, I think I am going. I'm just going to check it out and see what's up...

BTW, I chose to write a poem (If You Want To Know...) and I am going to recite it on Friday...

GTG...I'm late like five minutes already!!!